busy bee

been bustin my ass at workin pulling double and getting over time. had a hard time balancing school. skipped a few times. just finished finals this week. got 100% on 2 of them now waiting to find out what i got on the 3rd one. now im on brake til jan. 9th yay i finally get some me time :) well off to bed i got work in the am

doin it doin it well lol

wow working and school. so hard at times to juggle em both but i dont think im doin a bad job. my comp grade could be better though if i didnt wait till the last min to write my papers lol. just registered for winter classes today cant wait. think it will be easier but we shall see. be glad when im done with all my math classes that suck :P worked till 6 am and got some sleep but woke up to drama. i wish people would leave me out of their crap. relly wish i could take a vaacay i need some me time havent had that in a long time but i guess thats apart of being an adult be glad when im done with school but i do know all this hard work and never ending stuff is so worth it even though i got hw to do i think im gonna curl up in bed and read for awhile i need to relax been on the go way to much

walkin on stars

grr waitin for the post on my midterm grade for outlook. other than that living my boring everyday life and got a new tat :D

school work school and of course homework!!

things are going pretty well. schools good got all A's but that aint nothing new but the semester isn't over yet. on my off days ive been working so not much free time. hoping things will change so i can chill out and do nothing for once lol. been staying out of the bars. something happened a few weeks ago so ive been chillin out on all that. with as much homework i got i shouldn't be running around in the bars anyways.

i made it threw

well i made it threw this semester. i finished my acs class with over a 100%. now they just need to post the web finals grr wcc takes forever with stuff. wonder if i will get called into work tomorrow? they called the other day at 730 am. they use to call the night before i dont know why their pullin this bullshit now its not like i live right there i gotta get in the shower make a lunch and then drive out there.. to many people be on some bullshit and games!! and thats some real talk. but it is wat it is im not bout to let no one rain on my parade im gonna keep doin me and havin fun :)

hardest day ever...

so many memories have been flooding my mind.... i know its a good thing but i hate remembering . trying to study for my final that i have tomorrow but not going so good. i shall try again in a bit. making plans for my bday dont wanna go out but i need to have fun after the ruff week im going to have.

and it goes like this

had fun last nite to much fun i think lol but time to get back to the grind. endin up stayin at daves since i was to drunk to drive that was a lil akward but shit happens and life goes on. in a pretty good mood hehehe. got a email from someone. this dumb bitch has been hacking into my shit. some people need to get a life and worry bout their own instead of mine. but im above all that and will let no one get me down.

loving life :)

things are goin good. got a a in medical terminology final and got a c+ on my keyboarding final. on aug 2nd ill take my acs final but still got a a in that class. won both my scholarships i applied for and registered for fall classes. waitin to see if i get my work study be so much easier. works with class schedule and make decent money. wantin to go to dc but not sure thats gonna work out with my schedule yet we shall see. was seein a guy but typical ass pretty much. i need to be single and focus on school anyways. in 2 weeks my birthday. dreading the dirty 10. dont wanna do the typical bar thing but im sure ill be doing something. loving my life and everything that comes along with it :)

slackin off

hmm interesting week. had fun at the bbq last weekend. i must say last weekend threw me off ive been kinda slackin on my studying. after i take my exam today we shall see how bad. yay finals next Saturday and then i have my weekends back :) attempted my typing test. think i shall do again thrusday so i can be done with that class. dont wanna take it till august. then all ill have left for this semester is my acs. i register for fall classes on wed. time to start thinkin bout what i wanna take. which i have a idea but i guess time to really figure it out. blah less then a month till i turn 30 :( not lookin forward to it... wonder what interesting shit im gonna get into this weekend lmfao

rock on :)

i so rocked my midterm today. i got a"s in all my classes :) then i get home and check my school email and o got the scholarships that i applied for. im excited for that. means i can take a few extra classes so i can get my degree even quicker cuz i know i got a long way to go and its gonna be hard to stay motivated specially with the situation im livin in. all in all everything is grate havent got to do anything this summer since im always buried in homework or at school but thats ok in august ill get a few weeks off before i go back in the fall and im sure ill have some fun then. got some mixed feelings bout this weekend, guess will have to just sit back and watch. man time flys i cant believe its July already!!!

HOW IS IT?

HOW IS IT YOU KNOW WHEN TO CALL?
HOW IS IT YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN BRAKE THREW
AND GET INSIDE MY HEAD?
FOR A MOMENT I DIDN'T NEED YOU.
YOU SEEM TO KNOW MY WEAKEST MOMENTS.
YOU MAKE ME THINK.
I TRY SO HARD TO FORGET THE PAIN.
THE WOUNDS STILL FRESH.
I DARE YOU TO ASK ME TO BARE MY SOUL AGAIN.
THE PAST IS NOT FORGOTTEN.
I NEED MORE THEN WHAT YOU CAN GIVE.
I WANT MORE THAN WHAT THERE IS.
IF ONLY YOU KNEW.
IF ONLY YOU COULD BE.
SO TIRED OF THE PAIN.
I HAVE TO TAKE A STAND.
THE FOOLISH THINGS YOU'VE DONE
HAVE SHOWN ME WHO I AM.
I HAVE BECOME WHO I AM
BECAUSE OF YOU.
I HAVE GIVEN UP.
YOU HAVE BROKEN ME DOWN.
I NEED TO BE FREE.
YOU NEED TO LET GO.
I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE.
I NEED TO ESCAPE
BEFORE ITS TO LATE.
INSTEAD YOU GRAB MY HAND
AND DRAG ME RIGHT BACK DOWN TO HELL.

life is hard but then push back harder

well went in and changed my major not what i wanna do but then its the next best thing and i will get to what i want i just have to have patience even if i have to wait 5 years it will happen!!!! but now im way over whelmed bout the classes i have to take :( but im strong and stubborn and smart i will accomplish this!!! got so much on my mind right now. think im gonna write some music and see if that distracts me since ive already worked on homework today :)

frustration seems to be daily in my life this week.

well yesterday i got a email sayin i won one of my scholarships. yay :) downfall to that i have to take 9 credit hours not that bad we shall see how i do. bad news is wcc isnt adding my program so i started checkin out other places. i can get waived to take my boards but not my clincals and i cant get my felonies expunged thats some bullshit if i can get waived to take my boards there should be no problem with the clincal portion. i guess ill wait and see if wcc brings the program soon. i know with nursing i can apply after 15 years so maybe ill still do that. but ive decided with what im goin for now im gonna turn my certificate into a degree. with my background a degree looks better anyways when im goin for a job. im stubborn and i always get what i want when its something i truly want but it sucks havin patience and when i was young and dumb doin stupid stuff and now matter what i do or how much i change and better myself that stuff will always follow me. sucks because we all have a past and some people do change. i guess everything happens for a reason though.

busy busy busy lol

things been going pretty good :) kicking ass on my exams and doing just as good in my other classes. completely eliminated drama queens out of my life meaning friends and family. don't need ya nor do i want ya in my life. life is to short to have to deal with drama specially none that has nothing to do with me. since i topped hanging with losers in drama ville i stopped getting pu into drama so why should i deal with family drama? shit gone almost 30 years without ya really don't need ya now. grr had to go get my back shocks replaced today. i wonder why they went bad were still brand new. well hope nothing else needs to be done for awhile other then a oil change i know i have coming up. i love my car but i hate driving in the city lol wonder if i will get any hours at work this week? my uncle said he hasn't got any in 2 weeks hmmm. wow its only after midnight feels so much later but then i got up at the crack of dawn lol well i guess i should get the rest of my stuff ready for class tomorrow now while im thinking of it i have a busy day ahead of me. :)

over my head

wow i dint think it was gonna be this much work. not afraid of doin hard work but wow think i bit off more then i can chew i guess i shouldnt have picked up this extra class. i know i should withdraw but because im stubborn i wont do it. i guess its a good thing im not workin this summer so i can put my days to studying and doing homework. i dont have time to do anything but thats a good thing keeps me from hangin with dumb asses and gettin dragged into their drama. went out to stockbridge sunday. havent been out there in almost a year. glad i did i miss bein out there. nice to get away even though it was for a day and yes i did a bit of homework out there too lol speaking i gotta get back to the grind. :0

bitting my tears and worry and smiling

last night i got a email from my cousin telling me my aunts in the hospital it makes me wanna cry. i know shes has issues all her life most of them come from her childhood. i just got in contact with her a little less then a year ago and sometimes when we talk i ask her questions about my family. i cant help but wonder if that has anything to do with whats goin on. i really like her and am concerned about her. i hope she gets the treatment that she needs and gets better. id really to see her truly happy. i guess all i can do is hope and pray for her.

better then i expected

Took 3 exams today so far I have a b in class yay :) still not having much energy wonder if I should go to the dr and get checked out.. Must be downriver jerks week got 3 dumb asses tryin to spit game at me lmao. Feeling sleepy think im gonna read my book and go to bed

karma bit ya in the ass

well they must have gotten something in the mail from my lawyer cuz on Tuesday they called 8 times in 6 hours. they've started calling today too. they know their in the wrong or they wouldn't be blowing up my phone. i wonder what happens next? other then that busy busy busy with school. man o man am i gonna earn this credit. i wouldn't have thought this class would be so hard but its kicking my ass!! im takin 6 credits but this is the one im worried bout i think when i take my test this weekend i wont be so stressed so we shall see. ive had appts. at the school for the past few days so i can do what i gotta do. i have no patience but its all workin out for the best. now if i could only get my records from Florida and id be good to go :)

Surprises

Wow my mom surprised me yesterday. Told me she was proud of me for gettin my ged and have me grad money. When I was goin to school for it she never encouraged me or anything. Idk but it was nice what she did yesterday. Got all my homework done. Kinda nervous bout todays class terminology is hard!! I need to pass with a c to take the classes I need but I hope I do way better then that. Still lookin for a new job hope I find something soon. Went to see thor last nite with chris. I didnt think I was gonna like it but I did.now I need to catch up on the other movies to the marvel series lol well I guess I should get up and about so I'm to class on time

Feakin out

Grrrr doin my homework. Man this class is gonna kick my ass. I hope ill do well and pass. Idk how I'm going to balance everything. Looks like all I'll be doing this summer is studying. Not a bad thing but I still need a job

Price 2 pay

Hung with chris yesterday had a blast but for some reaon I feel like crap 2 day

people are stupid

grr went and got my hearing test Monday not the results that i wanted but nothin i can do about it. took my job the Dr excuse still not back to work so i met with a lawyer wed. and now im suing them. its not about the money its so that they dont get away with treating people like this. school stuff all taken care of now waiting for my books. decided to take another class. hope it all works out. now im just looking for another job hope that i find one soon. filled out a app where my sister in law works hope i can get in there it would deff save me tons of gas money thats for sure. Brooke started textin me the other day sayin shes sorry and tellin me that Derek said i posted his n palmers number on craiglist. ive never done anything like that nor do i have palmers number. idk if its him or her playin games but this is stupid as hell. she is a drama queen and after the way she has treated me i basically want nothing to do with her. im not gonna keep dealin with shit like that. shes showed me her true colors im good. plus tryin to cause problems between me and my brother u dont cross that line. i see who she values family. i dont need people like that in my life thats for sure. well i guess i should get my butt in the shower and finish gettin my stuff for school next week is comin up pretty fast

Upside down inside out feeliing

Fml well I havent worked since wed. Someone making a big deal and worrying about me instead of themselves I can't go back to work till I have a dr excuse. So dumb...... I do have a hearing test on monday. Its time I get all this taken care of anyways. But it would be nice to work... I dont know it is what it is. Hmmm been talkin to someone dunno where its goin but if it does some people are gonna have issues cuz they are argont.  At this point I'm a grown woman I should be able to do what makes me happyjust last weekend i went out to celebrate and cuz someone doest like someone else i was gonna be eliminated for hangin with that person.im done caring anymore. these people dont take part in my life anyways.

haters

why do people have to be worried about what im doin? if they worry bout themselves everything would be ok. someone always tryin to get someone down when they doin good. i know the rules and what im pose to do at work if i was in the wrong i wouldnt be obvious about what im doin.....

Went out friday had some fun.drink a lil to much since I'm still feeliing it. Bout to catch up on my sleep and work tomorrow hopefully. Harlot easter people

Sssswwwweeeeeeeetttttttt

I passed. Got my ged. Registered for college classes today. I'm on my way. And working' life is pretty damn good right now

Nervous

Take my last ged test tomorrow lets hope I do well. Then I can finish registration for summer classes yay me

gotta get up when your down ;)

did my orientation today. started my compass testing. did awesome on the reading. did the writing but didnt score to good. idk if its cuz i took 2 tests back to back with me being adhd on top of it or if im really that dumb. u only get to take twice so tomorrow im going to retake i hope i do better. then monday is my last test for the ged and im done with that. other then that just tryin to get everything done so i can start my summer semester of college and get it all rolling. its been a pretty up n down thing. ud think id get some support from my mom but thats a big joke. idk it just makes me wanna push harder to prove her wrong. its frustrating at times to where i wanna give up but after i get done with that spell it just makes me more determined. this is one of the easiest yet hardest things that i have done so far in my short life. i cant wait till im done and i can see the outcome of all my hard work :)

Sick of people

so sick of people and their games. Cant wait to get out of here and away from all the dumb shit. this shit is stressin me out and really i shouldnt be letting it get to me but it is today

contaplating life

Started a diet yesterday ok so far. My new yoga pants are ruined. Idk how :(. Sarahs boyfriend called me yesterday. Idk I dnt wanna be in their drama but id like to see sarah get her shit together. Hmmm my right side of my ribcage hurts for some reason. I'm getting old :(

someone knock me out lol

my sleep is so messed up. wish it could get back to being normal again. maybe im nervous bout my last test idk. rain ehh wish it would go away lol

awesome!!

i scored really well :) now i just need to get a good score on my next one and im done yay. grr shipping my laptop back to hp again tomorrow. hope they actually figure out what is wrong with it and fix it. ive never had so many problems in my life. i think i bought a lemon.

patience is wearing thin

i have checked wcc a million times and they havent posted my test score from yesterday. grr i wanna know how i did. if i passed i have only one more test to take which will be on the 18th and then i will finally have my ged yay!! then onto getting college in the fall all figured out:) life is good. still weeding out the negative people in my life. ive noticed when i dont have contact with people out in taylor there seems to be less drama in my life. same goes for when i talk to the other side of my family. they sure are full of drama and drag me into it. i guess ya live and learn. now off to studying i go :)

blast from the past :)

such a nice day out. went to see my friend at u of m who i havent seen since 7th grade was pretty cool:) waiting for my test on monday almost done yay lol now tryin to get into u of m and figure out more bout my school stuff for the fall

thank god!!!

Yay I passed my math test

waiting.....

Take my math test at 6. Nervous. Took the one in my book and got half wrong. I want do ok but as long as I get a 410 I'll be happy.

being productive

Been at sarahs for the past couple days. Got some of my grant stuff done yay. Taking math test on monday hope I pass. Quiet on the drama end. Got that girl kicked off fb. Deleted sum ppl

wtf

omg that dumb bitch started emailin me again. idk wat ppls problem is. i told my cuz bout it n she thinks im doin it. idk watever brooke is just a drama queen always cryin poor me so watever. the only thing i feel bad bout is her gettin mixed up in taylor drama other then that i could care less. 99 percent of this family is 2 faced assholes and i dont got time for. which it is wat it is. anyways other then that. weather is super and its st. pattys day :) yay bout to have some fun. gettin closer to being done with school and startin college in the fall.. busy weekend. goin over my foster sisters for a bit n hangin with a friend. hope i catch some sleep before this. stressin bout my upcoming test so ive been stayin up till the sun comes up studying lol

friday funday!!

went out to parma friday so kevin could do the thingys on my battery. hung with my cuz i havent seen her in like 4 years. man she is so laid back now. thats good though. i had a blast out there ill deff have to go out there more now that i have a drivable car. other then that just goin to school and tryin to get everything ready for college in the fall. applying for grants n such hope i get em :) i just gotta get people to write the recommendations for me

inheritied my fathers bad luck

friday nite i couldnt get my alarm to set then sat n sunday i couldnt get it to disarm. wtf i swear i have the worst bad luck. i called several people cuz i have to have my car to get to school. sanchez came out and tried to help but we couldnt figure it out. my ex who im still friends with drove 2 hours to come help me and now i can drive my car yay lol. some people need to learn the deff. of friends and family. people call me for shit all the time but then when i call them they wanna act funny. just remember what comes around goes around.

gotta keep on goin

woke up to a ruff start for my day but got better. still hiding after my mom attacking me sat. in the car. gotta love bipolar people. goin stir crazy cant wait for spring brake to be over so i can get back to school and get my science test out of the way:)

family time

spent 6 days at uncle garys. went threw pics found some pretty awesome pics that were my grandmas and spending time with him getting to know him better. had his grand kids there. went skating lol havent been in like 15 years. forgot how but made it around the rink and only fell once. getting pretty good at driving my car. had my writing test this morning hope i passed it. spring brake next week so i gotta wait to find out the score :( other then that i know im far from perfect but im learning how fake my family really is. just doin me and happy doin it :) my mom got some slides put on a disk seen some pretty cool pics on that side of the fam to :)

yippy

i passed my test on monday got a 610 which is awesome i didnt think id score that high. this coming monday im taking another test i hope i do well on it. i didnt do well on the practice test :( uncle gary came out on tuesday and drove with me im getting better. i really like the car. been a pretty good week even though im stressin bout school

its finally here!!!

my car came yesterday morn. took it for a drive around the place my mom lives but kinda nervous bout taking it on the road. my uncle garys gonna come over tues and drive with me. i hope i do well. its a big change for me after drivin a automatic for years. but its a free car and better then the one i have so cant complain. i started to pimp it out a lil. but a steering wheel cover on and wat not and since the electric blanket my mom got me for xmas didnt really work. we took that back today and im gonna use that money to put a cd player in :) 2maro i take the social studies test for part of the ged. i hope i do really well on it

bye bye escort

well got my car sold today :) havent heard from the transport co so i called. hope everything goes well tomorrow with the pick up and its here by sunday. if all goes well all i need to do this weekend will be to study for my test on monday. still havent figured out my phone blah lol. still need to get on a normal sleep schdule but ill work on that this weekend. stayin up till 7am aint gettin it for me i dont like sleepin all day. wtf my mom has been a fuckin nut this week. flippin out on me for no reason and accusing me of shit i didnt do. anyone want a new mom? i got mine up for sale!!! seriously there should be a law that bipolar people have to live on their own island or sumthin.....

just a typical day in the neighborhood

i take a part of my test on monday. kinda nervous but im sure ill do well. this weekend is almost here with my new car :) now i just gotta get this car here sold. gettin a better hang of my phone. justin came over yesterday still cant figure this update crap out for my phone ill be takin care of that this weekend. i hope i didnt get a bad phone since i have bad luck with electronics. had school. just another boring day in my life lol. brendas emailed me and tried talkin to me on im i wonder why? idk i worry bout sarah havent heard a peep outta her in awhile. idk it is wat it is though

snow snow go away

well startin to get a hang of my phone. still cant figure out how to do the updates though. yay ill be gettin my new car next weekend:)) now i just need to get this car sold. stupid snow had another storm last nite. did fine drivin on the road came home and  got stuck halfway in my drive way. took a few hours cuz id get mad and go in the house but my mom got it the driveway is pure ice. hmm superbowl sunday.. think ill stay home and chillax:)

tech stuff

got phone yesterday. think ive pretty got hang of it just need to learn how to do the updates. talked to jess last nite. by next weekend my car should be on its way here :) been a pretty good past couple of days now think im gonna go take a nap lol

snow ruins life schdule

they said we were gonna et a damn blizzard yesterday and we didnt. we didnt get much here but because people are pussies and dont know how to drive when we get sum snow my package is delayed till 2morrow. wtf i do have a life theres things i need to do besides sittin around waitin to pick this damn thing up. so far the guy who wanted to come out to look at my car 2maro hasnt called. idk nothin is goin my way so far 2day and not gettin jack shit for sleep aint helpin ill be glad to get to bed 2nite. think im gonna go read my book till i pass out

gettin busy :)

IF EVERYTHING GOES RIGHT FEDEX WILL BE BRING MY NEW PHONE TO MY FRONT DOOR :)  SCHOOL GOT CANCELED FOR 2DAY AND 2MARO :( BUT THATS OK IM STILL WORKING OUT OF MY BOOK HERE AT HOME EVERY NITE. POSTED A AD ON CRAIGSLIST NITE TO SEE MY CAR. IVE HAD A FEW RESPONSES AND SOMEONES COMIN TO LOOK AT IT THURSDAY MORN YAY!! HOPE I GET A BUYER SINCE IM NOT WORKIN I NEED THE CASH SO I CAN GET BACK N FORTH TO WORK N WHATNOT. BEEN A PRETTY GOOD DAY :)

bein the normal stress monkey lol

was pose to get my new car this weekend but i have to wait for my cuz to get the lien paper work so i can get the car transferred into my name. so hopefully by next weekend i should have it. grr my sleep is all messed u. i so need to get back on a normal sleep schedule. yay i will have my new phone wed. if it comes before i head to school if not thrus. for sure :) blah snow storm coming. hope ill be able to drive to school. i would like to take the social studies test monday to get that part out of the way of the ged. ive been doin 2 to 3 lessons a night in my workbook. wtf my brother is a asshole. he abandoned my niece again and the jerk deleted me because i posted on fb i went to dinner with her. i love him hes my brother but hes just like our dad.  idk not like hes tried to hard to get to know me in the past year. learning about my new phone and have to buy a few things for it when i get it. my moms helping me with that. hope i dont have problems with the new phone. just got a new phone on my warranty got it sat. and problems. that why my mom bought me the phone thats coming. pretty good day all in all now back to catching up on my fav shows :))

better luck this time?

got a new phone yesterday on my warranty and its the 5th phone ive had as that model. my mom said screw it and ordered me a android. i can wait :) my cuz has a iphone ive played around on hers a lil bit but i know my phone will be different so i guess i shall have learning how to use it. i should have it by wed. im actually pretty excited. i guess its the simple things that amuse me :)

IT IS WHAT IT IS

hmmm. i just made this but i will post later. my life is pretty interesting. i have ups and downs like everyone else but probably more downs then ups. some are my fault and others are because i but everyone before me and hang with dumb people which i guess are still my fault lol ive always kept a journal but i dont write in it much anymore. maybe by having this i will journal more often. i made this for myself but am leaving public. never know some people may leave positive comments and opinions. anyways enjoying the adventures and passages of my life :)