rock on :)

i so rocked my midterm today. i got a"s in all my classes :) then i get home and check my school email and o got the scholarships that i applied for. im excited for that. means i can take a few extra classes so i can get my degree even quicker cuz i know i got a long way to go and its gonna be hard to stay motivated specially with the situation im livin in. all in all everything is grate havent got to do anything this summer since im always buried in homework or at school but thats ok in august ill get a few weeks off before i go back in the fall and im sure ill have some fun then. got some mixed feelings bout this weekend, guess will have to just sit back and watch. man time flys i cant believe its July already!!!

HOW IS IT?

HOW IS IT YOU KNOW WHEN TO CALL?
HOW IS IT YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN BRAKE THREW
AND GET INSIDE MY HEAD?
FOR A MOMENT I DIDN'T NEED YOU.
YOU SEEM TO KNOW MY WEAKEST MOMENTS.
YOU MAKE ME THINK.
I TRY SO HARD TO FORGET THE PAIN.
THE WOUNDS STILL FRESH.
I DARE YOU TO ASK ME TO BARE MY SOUL AGAIN.
THE PAST IS NOT FORGOTTEN.
I NEED MORE THEN WHAT YOU CAN GIVE.
I WANT MORE THAN WHAT THERE IS.
IF ONLY YOU KNEW.
IF ONLY YOU COULD BE.
SO TIRED OF THE PAIN.
I HAVE TO TAKE A STAND.
THE FOOLISH THINGS YOU'VE DONE
HAVE SHOWN ME WHO I AM.
I HAVE BECOME WHO I AM
BECAUSE OF YOU.
I HAVE GIVEN UP.
YOU HAVE BROKEN ME DOWN.
I NEED TO BE FREE.
YOU NEED TO LET GO.
I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE.
I NEED TO ESCAPE
BEFORE ITS TO LATE.
INSTEAD YOU GRAB MY HAND
AND DRAG ME RIGHT BACK DOWN TO HELL.

life is hard but then push back harder

well went in and changed my major not what i wanna do but then its the next best thing and i will get to what i want i just have to have patience even if i have to wait 5 years it will happen!!!! but now im way over whelmed bout the classes i have to take :( but im strong and stubborn and smart i will accomplish this!!! got so much on my mind right now. think im gonna write some music and see if that distracts me since ive already worked on homework today :)

frustration seems to be daily in my life this week.

well yesterday i got a email sayin i won one of my scholarships. yay :) downfall to that i have to take 9 credit hours not that bad we shall see how i do. bad news is wcc isnt adding my program so i started checkin out other places. i can get waived to take my boards but not my clincals and i cant get my felonies expunged thats some bullshit if i can get waived to take my boards there should be no problem with the clincal portion. i guess ill wait and see if wcc brings the program soon. i know with nursing i can apply after 15 years so maybe ill still do that. but ive decided with what im goin for now im gonna turn my certificate into a degree. with my background a degree looks better anyways when im goin for a job. im stubborn and i always get what i want when its something i truly want but it sucks havin patience and when i was young and dumb doin stupid stuff and now matter what i do or how much i change and better myself that stuff will always follow me. sucks because we all have a past and some people do change. i guess everything happens for a reason though.

busy busy busy lol

things been going pretty good :) kicking ass on my exams and doing just as good in my other classes. completely eliminated drama queens out of my life meaning friends and family. don't need ya nor do i want ya in my life. life is to short to have to deal with drama specially none that has nothing to do with me. since i topped hanging with losers in drama ville i stopped getting pu into drama so why should i deal with family drama? shit gone almost 30 years without ya really don't need ya now. grr had to go get my back shocks replaced today. i wonder why they went bad were still brand new. well hope nothing else needs to be done for awhile other then a oil change i know i have coming up. i love my car but i hate driving in the city lol wonder if i will get any hours at work this week? my uncle said he hasn't got any in 2 weeks hmmm. wow its only after midnight feels so much later but then i got up at the crack of dawn lol well i guess i should get the rest of my stuff ready for class tomorrow now while im thinking of it i have a busy day ahead of me. :)